the way life operates/special observations





37.the way life operates


            In each epoch of civilisation people wrote. In the beginning they didn't write about how after the big-bang, the invisible forms of matter we call 'radiation' created the first atoms, how later on planets were formed and how the first cells came into existence. 


In fact 'coming into existence' is not the right word to express something concerning evolution...everything that exists existed already for eternity.


The main reason why life exists anyhow is because something without a form, something meaningless, cannot exists...a form of matter that tends to become equal or smaller then zero, explodes.  This was the reason for the bigbang.  To much pressure on anything and


anywho and new situations and creations and development will follow.  One can say that we are who we were ment to be because in fact we were there already in the form of radiation earlier then the first atom that was created...which also isn't a correct way of putting it because the first atom already was a piece of the first radiation and so on.


We came a long long way and in fact we're much older then the latest bigbang some 15 billion years ago.


            If some day maybe the last human beiing on earth or in space will die, a part of him will become once again a form of radiation...in fact for a part we are radiation...but we cannot touch it...or can you 'touch' your conversation when you are phoning without wire ?  When you study science, you will find a lot of metaphors that will try to show you how life operates.  'Life'...not only our life, but the total beiing of it. 


To become a more conscious person, this 'feeling one with life' is the first step we should learn to take. Just like nature can miror itself in each drop of dawn in the morning, we, if we allow some light in our consciousness, we can feel the unity of the universe inside ourselves.  Whenever we feel 'divided' we should try to imagine the basic principles mentioned above.  Feeling one with nature isn't so hard to do when you take a walk in a quiet place...and even those who live on ther country somethimes forget about their links with the univers.  Always remember, even in a flat on the fourth floor it's possible to feel good.The trouble is that we mostly feel  seperated from our origins because of the fact that we must eat and have shelter every day, we are social beiings...our worries about things like money and other material needs are a  risk to  feel divided with who in fact we are.


            An even greater risk that threatens our feeling well and undivided, are our negative emotions.  Even if we do not have financial problems, even if we like our job...negative




emotions can make us completely nuts.  As long as we can feel some positive emotions there still is hope for each of us.  At the same time, while following the line of positivity and while trying to understand negative emotions...we should be severe to them...they only come our way in order to teach us who we really are and why everybody must take responsability for his own life, not trying to seek a revench for the pain one suffered or started.  How can we use those positive emotions to create a better relationship with ourselve, with the ones we meet every day and with the rest of the world ? 


Why we allow so many people of using emotions  or money wrongly to spoil a part of our lives with their lies ...aren't we around to teach them a lesson from time to time ?  


Good and evil do exists, but the devil is our own creation.  We musn't allow anyone or ourself to divide us in any way.  


            'God' is our own invention too and this idea or this feeling indeed can help a lot of us...but it can also, once again, 'divide' ourselves in groups of different believers.


Why should someone who plays rugby look down on someone who plays football...they are both sports aren't they ?  Why should protestants want to fight catholics in Northern Ireland or why should sijiets murder sunnis or vice versa ?  Division always looks around the corner...if you are a happy couple ...why invite trouble ?  Sometimes life uses differences and trouble to obtain some purification, the less conscious we are about this way of progressing, the later we realise what is happening to us in the meanwhile. 


            In Europe we do not go to war any more against each other.  How was it possible that war broke out then before ?   Wasn't war always the last phase of economical competition between tribes or countries ?  Always some leading economical groups in society make war with the help of their political friends...they cannot do so if the ones who chose them, take an undivided decided action against them.


No country can afford to go to war when small businessmen, farmers and workers go on strike against it.  Sometimes life succeeds in creating the conditions to make such positive things possible...aldough a lot more coordination between different worldevents stays needed.  In other cases things go from bad to worse with seemingly no end to it. 


Just like in our own little lifes with their ups and downs and downfalls.





38.special kinds of observations


            *Yesterday I saw two chairs standing near the water.  All the year they had waited for me till I would find the right time to sit on one of them.  Seasons past by.  It was now summer.  A hot day in the afternoon.


            I sat myself down and after a while I noticed the shadow of the hughest tree of the parc in the water.  The slightest movement of the smalest fish can make the water move all the end through the other side of the pond.  The air was filled with a little wind, enough to make the tree dance in the rimpels of the water. 


The branches of the three grew bigger and then again smaller, like if some kind of fluid was passing through them.  The branches seemed to become a gigantic pump through wich it's blood was pumped.


            I imagined this was like when someone gets a hartattac or something...a vain breaking while to much pressure made it explode.  The dancing leaves in the water seemed to be like the smallest bio in our longs, very meryly operating in their territory.   I sat so silent and forgot about the parc, concentrating on this essence of life, that once my concentration was broken I saw the shy wild parccat with a whole bunch of her young traversing the parc, tails in the air...so that was why I turned back a few hours earlier when I wanted to get me a cat with someone I know...lifes work in often predicting, unexplainable ways.  When I wanted to get some food for the cats the whole lot of them flew in all directions...one little cat forgot on her trip in the outside that their is water where






land ends...and fell in the water...swimming onto a nest surrounded by water.  When I took the boot to catch the wild cat, a stupid idea, I discoverd that a pair of waterbirds indeed had made a nest on top of a whole lot of lost wood I had put in the water.


            *If you pay attention to what is beeing said between two people or more, it is the result of what goes on in their separated minds...but in an aditional form.  Even the place were one is, is the result of what went on in one or more minds.  Both statements are the logic result of a number of things happening every day...slept upon through the night and getting more ready for execution the following day.   


            *I drew a picture while I was phoning with someone...first some geometrical blocs one after another, then I added a head that smiled and a tail...while the conversation continued I put eyes in the blocs and added some blocs unther the blocs and made trousers out of them...in the end it looked like an Asian dragon who was dancing. 


The dragon was composed of some people, cheerfull.  The thing I didn't told in the conversation was that the day before I was in the company of Asian people and their European friends, all very satisfied.   I had completely no intention of drawing the dragon, I only saw in the end what I had drawn.  Even more special was how I found the pub where those people were.  I saw a falcon sitting on a wire when I drove to my chalet.  Later on I went to find a pub were I could drink something and I saw a name of some pub called 'Falcongarden'.  I entered and much to my suprise I ended up amongst the friends I mentioned above.  The day befor after watching a documentary on the stupid war of imperialism in Vietnam and a conversation with the Vietnamese wife who has a take away in the village I knew after the firework I watched with her husband and children that some Asian encounter was again to take place...but on the moment of seeiing the falcon, I even had forgot about it.


After that events in the evening I put on the television and on that very moment a Falcon was catching one of my favorite birds who comes to eat here often...that day I had seen a remarkely big one for his size (not a falcon).  Those special birds,... when I saw one one day a man came to visit me a few hours later and later on he build many nests for birds in the parc where I live.  Birds, they live on the branches, those vains from the earth.


More then a month after writing this I haven't had time any more to visit my Asian friends...because other events who made me put more attention to my work, crossed my way.


            *I called my philosophical project in the parc 'food for the mind'...isn't everything food for the mind, even the real earthly food itself ? 


            *Images of people, dead or alife can somethimes be more 'present' then real presence...it's just presence in another way I think.  Light is knowledge.




social ethics


            *A woman who contributed her life to the working class died in april I read.  Someone wrote an article to remember the story of her life.  I enjoyed it very much.


            *The leaders of Israel and Palestine  keep on wasting their future away...while Irak is staying hell on earth.  When people desire a more just share of the wealth, they are crushed in history. Socialist orientated small groups do seem to recognise more and more the valuable points in each others explanation, but they do not admit it as such.


emotional weight


            *Some people will always tend to hurt others just because they themselves war hurt before.  Whether they were themselves to blame or not.  Their beiing clever to achieve the revenche, goes beyond a lot of imagination.  A lot of the tricks are so transparent that you provoke yet more of their anger if you find a subtile way of letting them know you read their mind.  Be aware of those how tell you that they had a very bad relationship and still suffer from it...listen to people who are gratefull about their experiences and to people who have




forgiven.  What I endured in life is not understandable for the majority of people I know.  


            *Sometimes I ask myself whether children with parents that were not so close together as they taught have less opportunity to lead a stable life...but I do feel that every person who was born couldn't have done otherwise...this has nothing to do with reiincarnation in the hindoe-way, but because of the forces of circumstances that are pushing people to make people because of the genes that have to be spread and the lessons about oneself and others that have to be understood.   One can only understand this thoroughly if you imagine all personages connected in the same story, seen from different angles.                                                  


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