13-07-14

Some English essays

 

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39.how even you and a small community can save the world

            It was now almost then years ago since I wrote the following words :

"Peace will come in the hart of the ones with the honnest souls. Preserve the earth from destruction and lead the people towards better lives.  The world is one, never ever forget.  There is only one life and one world, take your responsibility and live as intense as possible. 

Be light to be a guide.  Go to the streets, speak of joys to be.  Your place is everywhere you will feel free.  Observe, restrain your forces.

Show them what the material world and the spiritual matter is all about.  The truth is very simple. It's hidden in the past, lives in the present and needs the future.  Why is there so little joy to be found amongst many ?  People do not wonder enough about who they really are and what the life they lead really means.  They should be more philosophers than materialists, they should ask themselves why they live in a society of wealth and poverty, peace and war, stress at work and unemployment. But there are other reasons for the lack of joy also...reasons one cannot write about yet...and reasons one cannot write about."

            Looking back at those words at the end of july 2006, I can indeed say that peace can only come in my heart the day people start thinking and acting to make this world a good place to live for everyone.  Why should we let the direction of this world in the hands of a tiny minority exploiting it for the sake of the same minority ?  Why should we be forced to sit down and watch this world go to pieces more and more, day by day ?  The ones we are used to see on our screens, shaking their 'important' hands, having a drink behind their long negociating tables, planning wars and presenting themselves as the saviours of the human race, in fact are the same ones that feed  barbarity.

They prevent people from having a meaningfull job and hold them into a kind a slavery.  They controle States and companies and therefore have a great power over our lives.  They in fact dictate what news is to be brought and they keep on writing their own bloodly version of history.

            And what about we ?  We accept the hundred ways in which they controle our lives.  When will it get through to a majority of us...the condition this world is in, is the result of our unconsciousness and our unwillingness to do something about it...we gave and give them a free hand.   Will we further allow them to lie to us about what real freedom and human values are all about ?  We won't...and 'we' begins with us.

            Which are the reasons why we often have a lack of joy and personal and social commitment ?  If we want to know where our negative emotions come from and who in fact we are...we should not primaraly go to our different kind of existing churches for an explanation.  If you like to go to churches and read some ancient texts, then do it in a way that you keep in mind that the people who wrote those texts were a product of their time as much as we are now.  Philosophical answers and faith can as well be found in the things that science reaches us then in several holy texts.  It is to be said that some of them have become

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outdated, especially those who consider humour a dangerous thing and who teach that one kind of believers is 'better' then another one.  But let us consider ourselves as human beiings in stead of uncritical followers of some kind of believe.  By connecting philosophy with science I'll try to prove that believing in what science teaches us does not necessarily go against religious aspirations as eternal life. 

 

 

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40.What we really are and where we came from. 

            In fact in our search for the meaning of life, we can start by realising that something can only exist if it has a meaning, a sense.

Why is that ?   Because something without a form cannot exist...every kind of matter that tends to take a space which tends to approach or equalise to 'zero' ...it explodes.  It's just like 'the' or one of the 'big-bangs' of the history of universe.  To much pressure on a certain point, makes everything explode, in both the micro and makro world...who in fact are one : stars, atoms, cels, ...even our relations...to much pressure makes new developments possible...if these are improving the position of the old situation...we call something 'meaningfull'.

            The laws of nature developed very ideal conditions for life as we know it to get started.  After the big-bang there wasn't really anything one could 'touch'.  Matter existed as different kind of radiation.  In Dutch the word for 'radiation' is 'straling'...when someone is happy we say he looks 'stralend'.  It were the laws and try-outs of radiation that produced the first atom and later on the planets and the climate conditions that created the first cell and so on.  It really is an amazing story which one can look up for oneself.  So next time you walk through a forest be also aware of the speed with which the earth unther your feet still travels in the direction it was pushed some 15 billion years ago.

            All that beautifull past, all the wisdom the first cells atained when they learned how to divide to stay alive...all of that stuff is still living the very moment you read these words.   When we die a part of us becomes minnerals and so on, but the radiation  leaves our bodies...the study of the way our mind observes and some personal experiences I prefer not calling 'mystical', as well of some scientifical studies lead me to strongly believe that our lives not only have a social meaning...but on a personal level we interact to create the conditions that bring us closer to our soul.  Our soul, not only the pieces of genetical heritage goiing back to the first cells...but the essence that is really ours...maybe it's our continiously enriched radiation from so long ago.

            In fact, isn't everything that exists not only one soul ?  We see 'God' as the ideal abstract person which controls everything, but in fact the purpose of our evolution is to make this world work so that we materially can live in peace to spend more and more time in comparing the ways in which we give meaning to our lives.  To someone who believes in reincarnation we would say that the same person can appear unther aproximatly the same conditions  after a billion big-bangs for exemple...or maybe we could answer that we were already there as a piece of all the ones we descended from.  We are a great mix, but the navigator inside us should always follow the line of his hart, not the line of how much money he can make or how he can take a revench on someone.  We should all try to overcome all our philosophical, religious and personal differences and negative emotions based on what ever happened in the past and forget our bloody history and start again by focussing on the present and wishing good things for the future to come.

           

            Matter and spirit have always been one.  Matter was energy and energy always means the possibility of creation and evolution.

Even if one tries to destroy energy you always get a change of form, no vanishing into nothing.  'The meaning of life' is something that has always been there.  The journey from nature to human culture was a very long one.    

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Matter contains energy that has prepared the coming into beiing of spiritual energy...or maybe matter originally alwa was the total collected energy between two big bangs. 

The first meaning of life is therefore the coming into existence, the maintenance and growth of spiritual matter.  All chemical and fysical powers like temperatures, distances, speeds, pression, time as well;

all movements from atoms and cells ...everything serves the growth of spiritual energy.

            It has always been like this, because electrons cannot be destroyed.  Our mind is not only composed by the electrons of all our braincells, but of the atoms of all our other cells.  In fact we can say that all our cells have a specific  consciuousness.

            The question 'who are we', can best be answered by 'where do we come from'.  That question no longer is a monopoly of religion. 'Religion' comes from the French word 'relier', combining.  Combining science and philosophy and politics and psychology, helps us to understand the real meaning of our lives.  'Faith' can be based upon a beautiful smile or brilliantly used words or notes as well...the answer to the question 'the meaning of life', never only is intellectual. 

            In fact the ones who wonder to much about whether there is or isn't a God, are occupied with the following question : 'Is there an energy that has less or as much or more consciousness as we...and did that energy not have to travel all the way from radiation to atom to cell and human being to achieve this consciousness ' ?  What kind of energy is present in before a big-bang ?  The enriched energie of the previous cycle of big-bang and colapse in one point again ...or is it every time the same kind of energy starting all the way from the same energylevell ? 

So in fact what some call 'god' could be the expression of the longing for more energy, more enriched consciousness...in the present, future and past, the past, beiing the previous enrgylevellsituation.  In fact when when die we maybe still have our radiation as a form of beiing aware.

It thus seems that the creation of endless energy always restarts with not wanting to be nothing or nobody...both non existing things.   'Radiation' thus is the combination of all kinds of energy that existed in a cyclus between two big-bangs and which wants to start again and start something new.

Is it Einstein and others and their books and heritage or the radiation they are amongst us that makes me conclude all this after years ?  Who knows...because I somethimes don't I believe.

            Rather then beiing divided into traditional believers and their divisions on the one hand and those who believe in another way and it's divisions... aren't there enough other questions we should resolve ?

            Why isn't there a system for managing society that makes ignorance, war, poverty and famine impossible ?

            How come the relationship between 'lovers' or other relationships can be so complicated ?

            So, in one question :  'why does man have so much difficulties with those strange 'things' like god, dead, history, money or values like friendship, family, pleasure,lust, ...  ' ?

I think for one part it is because we haven't learned to observe objectively enough...aren't our observations continously beiing deformed by our own or the negative emotions of others ? 

On the other hand it seems like maybe even before the ejaculation and the landing of the egg, there's a game between coalitions of genes goiing on...like as if our past seeks to continue it's story in the future already...

not wanting to become 'meaningless' but learning the lessons the previous generations we ones were still had and have to learn.  So in fact life has always been and is an endless school, teaching in many ways.

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41.We are also family, friends and lovers

            When you take a close look at  your own live and that of people you know, you surely often observe that it seems like personalities with opposite emotional characteristics have married or other, less official relationships.

It starts with attraction and falling in love and its degrees, that depend on how deep the relation, not only between the consciousness of the lovers is, but also how profound teir link with the collective consciousness is ( their degree of involvement in seeking where they position themself in their personal evolution and their degree of intrest in all kind of sciences; especially human sciences : psychology, history, literature,...).  The quality of such a relationship also is chalenged by the quality of the links with the different kinds of social or psychological relationships surrounding the couple. 

            In many cases a love, is simply sabotaged by the social living conditions ( as often ones cultural development is).  In all cases love is determined by the genetical heritage and the education of the persons who are attracted to one another, because they find something 'stronger' or 'sweeter' in one another.  People that have not learned to be emotionally independent will try to attract someone 'stronger' then them...the strong one will feel good, because, he or she is 'helping'...genetically spoken maybe this might be a contribution to an emotionally stronger child...but this is wanting to play some kind of Superbeing; life does not work in this way.

Because, if you look closely, the 'weak' one (and almost always each person has a stronger and weaker side) , the 'weak'-part 'gives' to the stronger one also, ...he or she teaches him or her to be more confident or look for somebody more emotionally equal. 

            Can somebody emotionally less unstable change her or his genetical code of behaviour and become stronger, and what is the relationship between beiing aware of all this and the subconscious and unconscious ?  A person can be aware of things, this means, he is conscious of things.  Depending on her or his educational, genetical and emotional background, one will start 'reasoning' about the elements in ones consciousness, with maybe to much the accent on money-linked problems or reasoning with an emotionally overreacting mind.  If one does not choose for the hart or for the intuitive richness a spiritual link can bring along it will take getting over a lot of confusion to find ones road on life again.

            Somebody who is open to his or her relation with 'nature' and feels a link with eternal things, can reach her or his 'inner' better.

People who have reached their 'soul' and are free from negative emotions , are not far away from an inner contact.

The really spiritual stuff, is the inner life you feel inside when you reach a non-emotional dialogue with yourself...and if you're lucky...with the person you love. 

Because if you meet somebody on the same 'frequence' , love can reach high mountains.  You can stay there more easily if you do not get into other relationships that reach a sexual level; because then you will again feel the power of what instincts can do in starting the process of emotional thinking again. (or maybe the 'new' person should be 'evoluated' or 'emotionally-strong' to ) I don't know yet, but this kind of situation would open the box of negative emotions as well I think.  The atoms and cells,  responsible for this behaviour can't act otherwise, because their original blueprint was one egg and one spermatozoid.  That is why everybody in fact longs for one steady lover.

            One lover. In the story of your own growingprocess towards your soul, this is a positif something, provided that you don't look for a partner because of material reasons, or reasons of emotional insecurity.  The relationship between two people can be so intens, that you can support that your partner still has somebody else...but in the end...all persons will bear the weight from the ones that suffer under the differences in communicating in all it's ways. (with words, body,prescence...).

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When you have a good relationship with someone, or a good period in a relationship with someone, you can 'admit' you 'know' somebody else...otherwise there is something wrong...finding out where, is a mutual as well as an individual process; where the 'pain in the hart' or certain illusions force you to do some things or to speak some words that again, create new situations.

            I can imagine that married people, who married mainly out of emotional or 'resonable' reasons, are forced by their souls to look for someone else, and I can imagine that they stay together because of their young children for example.

I also can imagine that they even have no sexual relationship any more, but I cannot imagine one of the two staying single, then you stay a victime of the other, because your lack of beiing able to communicate to another man or woman in all it's different ways.

            Now the real problem in getting out of this kind of situation is , not beiing able to talk about it...because people are not taught to see the whole philosophical picture, they keep on using the old ways of thinking.  'Good', 'Bad' and 'Victim' in stead of looking to the specific genetical and emotional energy that is present in a relationship...only by doiing so, you reach your soul and from their onwards (and earlier) you get more open for an energy where no 'burning of negative emotions' is necessary any more...except if emotional love tricks you again.  In the end you'll know the difference between emotional love and intuitive love and their variations.

If you have a good love-life, your innercommunication functions better as well.

It's a pitty we use the word Love also in a sexual meaning; why not use the word Sex or Body-desire for the biological part of Love ?

            Maybe you are just honnestly and simply happy with somebody and you do not need other experiences because you know nobody is perfect. .I hope you do not start thinking that you are missing something, or that your life was incomplete because of one partner all your life...nobody is the same.   Maybe I don't have to teach you about love at all... how to interpretate the sounds, the words, the images, the events, the 'electricity', we can all learn to 'feel', instead  of just 'hearing' and 'seeiing'.  A lot of suffering, your own or that from others, will teach you when you cannot help or love any more. Have confiance, in the end it is a beautiful scenario, ones you've liberated yourself from to much suffering that makes you ill.  Your hidden forces want to express themselves through everything that lives and everything lives...exept people who don't want to become really themselves.

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42.there was life after dead

 

introduction : my inspirationmap

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Nothing is more 'real' then living life itself, how real art as well can be.

We all, we are characters in a real novel that has been going on since ages.

Persons create persons and then vanish again.

Since thousands of years we try to  put our experiences in to signs.

The more you understand about it, the harder sometimes to put it down in words.

The good man does, continues to live after him

The evil also.  Positive and negative interact in completion.

The sence of it all, in every way a powerfull, meaningfull something.

One can only observe and react, starting from an indifferent equilibrium

Science can give us a logical explanation about life.

A trained observer experiences more then the logic of things

Objectiv sciences mostly only have an eye for their field.

Phylosophy, Psychology and history must unifie the other logic.

 

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Einstein put together the achieved and unveiled a new point of view.

Time, space and matter became more relativ then we tought.

Religion tried to make us believe in Gods and God.

Kowledge and truth still were far away from proving a new kind of unity.

Marxists tried to understand the laws of history.

Conservative establishment  was against the sence of life socialism discovered.

But nobody could controle the subjectiv factor.

Freud and others tried to show the role of the unconscious.

But they did not discover the deeper meaning of life.

We all, could be more people looking for the meaning of life.

A meaning that surpasses life and dead.

But we are trapt in a lot of kinds of habits and 'pain'.

 

Life itself is a source of inspiration for everything I wrote about in every literary form.

I can stop writing and let it go by me till I understand the meaning of it better within a few years...or I can try to make a rapport of it every day.  I taught about the structure of my day and had a look at my work and the things I studied, the documentaries I kept on video, some newspaper-articles which I kept because I thought they had a lasting value.  To make this understandable voor readers, I first had to bring them a number of philosofical life-attitudes.  How to start this ?  Those attitudes were partly the result of a critical study of the existing attitudes and partly the result of my own practical experiences midst all kinds of persons which are to be found in everyones life.

We've all got them : family, bedfriends, friends, social and political persons,... .

 

With all that 'brainstorming' goiing on in my head, I was afraid of 'boiling over' and remaining on my chair till inspiration came, looked like dangerousely reaching a unallowable border.  I went outside to sit on a chair and stumbled back inn.  Symbolically I closed the door.  Something cracked inside me.

I closed my eyes for the last time here on earth.  An unexpected goodbye, where I had philosephed a lot about.  A few things I had imagined, became true.  The experience itself was aldough quite different, something compareable whith what I had experienced during the cremation of an old colleague of mine.  There was this kind of magnetism that started in my feet and got upwards, like it seemed to be coming from the ground.  When it reached my hart, I taught 'oh', 'something is definitly wrong with me'.  But no, the magnetism accelerated it 's speed and once in my head, it became a kind of more-dimmensional triangle, pyramide kind of 'lightdimension' which, like a starship in scinece-fiction vanished into space.  This form of yellow kind of light, did it disapear into the spaces of mikrokosmos or the ones of macrokosmos ?  Or was there an indifferent equilibrium inbetween ?

Probably I was in tthe anti-matter that every matter has, in the mikrokosmical world ...but that world is eveywhere, even in the makro-world.  So I did solve a part of the mystery 'god'. 

In any case, there was life after dead.

 

During my life, I had three different options about dead.  We surely fell back into the elements from which we were composed; energies like minerals, water, air, light and waves with each their own kind of consciousness.  Since we were connected genetically with the rest of the biological world...we were not dead in that sense.  As a third option I already suspected that all ones usable experiences in life, which had started with the genetical three ...befor ones life; after dead could be used as an energy working in two directions.   That energy, like the electrons it was made of, is undestroyable; it can only

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change in form...and that is what happens to us before and during and after our life.

I experienced my 'dead' as beiing reborn in an other dimmension, in the awareness that 'I' and 'we' had already lived for ever...far before the existing of the first atom and the first cell...as a kind of physcical energy with a 'soul'.  The feeling I had, was like watching the light that from the eveningcolors passes into the dark of the night and in a number of lightgradations is beiing born again in the morning. 

Just as like when you are living, when you do not know if there is life after dead, when you are dead , you do not know if you still have a body or not.  This is strange, very strange...from one 'mystery' you in fact dive into another. 

 

My individuality begon a long journey alongside our collective and individual past to the point of my dead, where individuality again seemed to vanish in collectivity and yet it had a separated existence at the same time.  It all happened rather fast, but on earth I would have needed many pages to discribe. The voyage I was on, went from atom to cell and the building up of our existing society, it was like checking an encyclopedy...but yet far more 'clever' than 'digital'.  The more clear the message and contents from the journey were, the more effort the voyager had spent in his life, to understand the meaning of life. 

 

The spiritual world was like a kind of internet-community, composed of the different kinds of tempers

of everyone who had existed sofar.  Every life was a kind of 'home-page' in fact...with branches to all the ones in the human story they had known.  'Had known' or 'knew'...it was not yet clear to me.

It seemed that the better it became to live on earth, the more beautifull the symbolism between the ones that already past away(the pastaway's) became.  Was this the moving-spring of the interaction between the two worlds ?

 

As soon as I reached a certain point NOW on my and our  earthly past, the new laws of my new form of existence, became clear to me.  They not only made my speechless, I also could not 'speek' any more, when I realised in which manner I could only express myself at the biologically lving persons.

There also was the awareness that they could use my energy and I theirs...but only in a symbolical, intuitiv manner through toughts and dreams and images and things that happened...a kind of 'inspiration' in fact.

I did not only have a 'voice' any more, I also did not 'see' any more...because I myself had become a part of light and air and all the other elements I was composed of...without knowing exactly what...like one can not see ones own intestinals and like one can only see onself in a mirror.   We only can feel the intensity of who we are.  Still I was able to think by means of images and taughts, like one can see images in his head in a biological body...aldough some scientists say that they aren't  there.

Another thing that became clear to me, was that I did not knew if I could still 'hear', because like something that was said...I could remember hearing voices and sometimes I wondered if a voice wasn't a taught.

 

With 'being dead' the 'emphasis' was beiing put more on 'feeling', even 'tought' was one.  Trying to feel with who in life you really were connected with.  Not literaly 'feeling', but 'touching each other in the spirit', not in the 'mind'(like in the soul) on earth...but it still seemed much like the positive feelings parents and friends can have unther each other.  It became clear to me that during ones life on earth all the consciousness and deeds one collects; all that positive and negative energy that interacts...at the same time on the 'other side' is beiing put together like a puzzle.  The final 'result' gives you the amount of

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'selfknowledge' you have reached when you die.

Ones earthly 'soul', based on positive and negative emotions, who commands ones earthly life; sometimes let's go some pieces of 'spiritual information', we the 'pastaway's' , need...in order to be able to 'give'.  Ones final dead is the unified picture of your life, offered to you.  From the moment you understand this at the other side, you get a kind of spiritual orgasm that enables you to realise that you are not alone at the other side...and that one can communicate as well with other spirits over there. 

Just like on earth one needs other people to be oneself.   On earth  somethimes some people are  aware of these things, but those moments seem to disappear because the amount of events that come and go.  On the 'other side' there also are thimes when one can isolate oneself...that often are moments when one is the most in unity with everyone and everything.  Not always nevertheless.

 

Like on earth, life after dead is not always 'romantic'...because the proces of consciousness that started with the voyage from atom to cell, organism, animal, men and society...that proces continues after dead.  It depends on your merrits whether you are armed to be able to continue that awareness-project.  Your 'hierarchy' as well depends from your merrits...and this has not much to to with the diploms you got, neither with the kind of work you did?  You ,'biological living ones' should be amazed about some people you taught you knew and who they are over here.  But later more about that.   If I get permission to say something about it, I will, but I have a feeling I won't.

To be able to explain all this I have to get back to my puzzle of life

I did not only have a 'voice' any more, I also did not 'see' any more...because I myself had become a part of light and air and all the other elements I was composed of...without knowing exactly what...like one can not see ones own intestinals and like one can only see onself in a mirror.   We only can feel the intensity of who we are.  Still I was able to think by means of images and taughts, like one can see images in his head in a biological body...aldough some scientists say that they aren't  there.

Another thing that became clear to me, was that I did not knew if I could still 'hear', because like something that was said...I could remember hearing voices and sometimes I wondered if a voice wasn't a taught.

 

With 'being dead' the 'emphasis' was beiing put more on 'feeling', even 'tought' was one.  Trying to feel with who in life you really were connected with.  Not literaly 'feeling', but 'touching each other in the spirit', not in the 'mind'(like in the soul) on earth...but it still seemed much like the positive feelings parents and friends can have for each other.  It became clear to me that during ones life on earth all the consciousness and deeds one collects; all that positive and negative energy that interacts...at the same time on the 'other side' is beiing put together like a puzzle.  The final 'result' gives you the amount of 'selfknowledge' you have reached when you die.

Ones earthly 'soul', based on positive and negative emotions, who commands ones earthly life; sometimes let's go some pieces of 'spiritual information', we the 'pastaway's' , need...in order to be able to 'give'.  Ones final dead is the unified picture of your life, offered to you.  From the moment you understand this at the other side, you get a kind of spiritual orgasm that enables you to realise that you are not alone at the other side...and that one can communicate as well with other spirits over there. 

Just like on earth one needs other people to be oneself.   On earth  somethimes some people are  aware of these things, but those moments seem to disappear because the amount of events that come and go.  On the 'other side' there also are thimes when one can isolate oneself...that often are moments when one is the most in unity with everyone and everything.  Not always nevertheless.

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Like on earth, life after dead is not always 'romantic'...because the proces of consciousness that started with the voyage from atom to cell, organism, animal, men and society...that proces continues after dead.  It depends on your merrits whether you are armed to be able to continue that awareness-project.  Your 'hierarchy' as well depends from your merrits...and this has not much to to with the diploms you got, neither with the kind of work you did?  You ,'biological living ones' should be amazed about some people you taught you knew and who they are over here.  But later more about that.   If I get permission to say something about it, I will, but I have a feeling I won't.

To be able to explain all this I have to get back to my puzzle of life

 

There was a reason why I had lived and why still live

            I 'watched' the places in the world that I had abondoned and 'saw' de growth of the harvests on the fields near the roades I had lived and traveled.  I saw the cars on the roads and the smoke coming from factories and some houses.  I saw the animals,but he people, I did not see.  Maybe I was in the people and that is why I could not see them any more. 

            Very strange in the begining.  My friends only lived in my memories...I only could see them in my memories, which was a way of better understanding how they felt...even on a present stage basis.

But how they felt did not preoccupy me at the moment, I needed my energy to concentrate on a text  of a novel or essay I wanted to complete.  I had called the introduction 'my inspiration maps'.

I saw the text lying on my desk, but how could I finish this book ?

Maybe there somewhere was a writer with still a biological life to lead, who read one of my former works and did not have any inspiration of from himself at the moment.  During my life I had called into existense enough energy to allow me at this moment to be 'connected' with a living soulmate. 

I would finish my book, through him.  Sometimes he would be aware of my special kind of presence without knowing.   Sometimes we were aware of each other, when he walked amongst the threes in the wood and taught about something he read about me.  I always wanted to plant a wood myself and there was this writer who lived in a wood near a pont and entered his chalet, took the newspaper and cut out my foto and an article on my life.  It gave me new energy to continue writing.  A lot of writers were still continuiing something amongst 'us' and 'them'.  Sometimes there seemed to be no difference amongst 'them' and 'we'.  Aldough we did not see 'them' busy with something...we felt what was going on in their world.  Like the living sommetimes were busy with the question what would happen after their dead, we, 'pastaways' were busy wondering what our next life in the 'afterafterworld' would be like.  Our form of energy in the afterworld wasn't eternal either and one day would change it's form as well.  Qualitivaly we had we had bettered ourselves because we mainly communicated with spirits from the afterworld that used to havethe same interests as we.  It was signitivaly how each of us tried to do this in his own way.

     Those who as farmers had been concerned about agriculture, received energy from those who liked doiing this on earth.  Communication between both sides worked as a system of connected fluids in different spaces.  The greadyness of a minority of farmers or landowners on earth often prevented the flowing of communication between farmers that were past away and those still active on earth.  Sometimes the representatives of the farmers in the afterworld came looking for advice with spirits that often had to deal with the same problems when they worked as farmers for exemple.

Then their was a communication amongst them and only the fact of this 'exchange' itself made it possible to generate some actions below that would improve something or that made farmers below aware.  But sometimes it looked like a neverending struggle. 

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In the afterworld, the ones who caused those problems in the past suffered untill some improvement was made. 

         So my friend the medium-writer had to tell people below to watch out and think about the suffering of their relatives in an heaven, that wasn't always 'heaven' to them.  Their relatives or people responsible for some misery of others should  have to do something about it...befor they end in the same position.  If they act know, collaboraters of blockades between this world and the next shall free themselves. In the afterworld the painly part of the existence of ordinary working people is more quickly healed then of those who were responsible for big decissions.  People who had mainly good intentions adapt very easily in  what the afterworld has to offer.  People who produced many goog waves anddid many good things to help others ...still can feel how they are doiing...without suffering and without beiing able to help them, when they aren't conscious enough to ask it.

Those wise 'afterworld'-men only can give some inspiration and advice, but the 'antennes' of the biologically living people have to be functiong...and they don't when they are not in an emotional balance.  Someone with to much negative emotions is a real problem for both the one below who is partly responsible for those emotions as for the one on earth.  In many cases, help must come from other identities.

     The afterworld in which we function, only can make us philosophing about our 'afterafterworld' because from time to time some 'spirits' disappear here, like on earth, some 'souls' dissapear.

We use the term 'afterspiritss' here.  We are trying to find the way to get in contact with them.  Like on earth we still are in a kind of phase in between.  Such a phase, like on earth you can divide in a number of stages of progressing or backsliding consciousness.  Once more, what was already clear to me on earth became more clear to me in the afterworld.  Everything is one and connected, but there are a numbe of phases.  Like from silence seven sounds are born, with whom one can compose music, like from white all other colors are born.  Like tought, feelling and inspiration can produce at least seven expressions of literature...from shouting to poetry.....Like one can touch someones skin in several ways as well.  It was rather strange that some of us missed those last feelings and others didn't.  Wy ?  Again a question for us to solve.  Did 'time' only continued to exist for those not feeling well because of existing ? 

   Looking out for a new stage of existing in our development was a new kind of enigma, riddle to us.

I , unlike others, did not believe that we were going to reincarnate in an other earhly body after disapearing out of the afterlife.  I believed more in spiritual growth and trying to show the ones on earth, our genetical three, we partly left behind; that they had to help themselves to be get conscious  happy and make a better world...in order to have a better life as well in the afterworld and help us at the same time by doing so.  Our mutual development was interdependend.

   I wasn' t much 'home-sick', I did not want to go back to the physical soullife, that was the embryo of our spirit and I did not think it was possible to return.  Maybe I never know if some of my friends in the afterworld would have indeed reincarnated...or if they would have been 'promoted' to the afterafterworld.  They'd better leave those reincarnation-ideas to the policy of the 'wisdom of the genetics' of the earth.  I , for the moment was already satisfied enough sharing the positive events on earth and seeing there really was a lot of hope for the world.   

   We spirits, in fact lived partly in the same world as the earth-people.  Because we were pure air and light and waves...again, we were part of their chain of nutrition...and we had an influence on their daily lives.  Some of my friends in spirit even went so far to think they could partly return by beiing present in genetical material.  "No wonder an ejaculation is

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such a crowdy buzzy rush-thing", I joked.        There had to be a number of connections between the three different kind of worlds, just like the past and the present and the future are in fact one...maybe the earthly-life, the afterworld and  the afterafterworld were one as well,all together interacting in a dialectical way.

   In the afterworld it was as well 2003 as below, and I was there since 1979 already.  We used the same time and in fact there only was one...others said that according to Einstein everything was possible, even returning to the middle ages as a baby...but I answered that they should not use Einsteins inventions to but him those words in his mouth. By the way, did anybody see Albert here ?

Nobody answered, so probably he already was in the future.

 

   I 'listened' to stories of the lives of my friends in spirit, and I answered just by beiing 'present', that's the way we talk over here.  My conclusions were sent to the interfering frequencies of the medium-writer on earth I was in contact with...not like 'dictating', but just 'waving' some inspiration together, like one picks flowers and afterwards gives them as a present.  My memories and his experiences produced the rest of the spiritual food.  It depended of what kind of literature the medium-writer wanted to write in, in which neighbourhood in the spiritual world I was to be found.

He is a good writer, because I often am to be found on high frequencies. 

I decided to review some of the things I wrote in my time.  In my earthly days I always had to look and look again to find my text...here they came faster then an internetconnection to me, without having to type something on a search-machine.  The fact that I was buzzy doing that was enough for the writer to have courage to continue with his work on special energies after his morningwalk.  Maybe some day, he would discover us ?     My wish to write again, became his wish to write again and otherwise.  

   Where to write about ?  About the ones who comit suicide  on earth ?  Some of them exausted themselves on earth because they had to many good intentions towards to much people...they recovered more quickly the the ones who spent a life complaining about their lives.  Sometimes they didn't cure at all.  A lot of people who had died and who were no suiciders, in fact were suiciders on a long time basis.  They could cure spiritually as well because it wasn't always there fault that they didn't discoverd the role of structures and people and emotions in their lives.

   Sometimes we in the afterworld supose that the afterafterworld can guide some energy from the ones with less energy to the ones with not enough energy.  I think I'm not ready for that job jet.

I had to many experiences giving my energy away for free in my lifetime...maybe it never was my decision...and maybe the decision was taken above my head. 

   To change energy seemed to be to me a far healtier proces then only profiting from someones stock. It means learning to express yourself and act in the commun interest I think.  I means recognising ones limits and possibilities in the total picture of connections.  In the afterworld those who can give advice, do not have to suffer any more by taking over the sorrow of others.

   I discovered that the more people were victims of fear and not-knowing, the more they were influenced  by negative ideas.  The negative influence of pastaways who did much damage below, lived after them, but could not come back.  Only the positive could come back.  It really was encouraging.  The meaning of life, in fact was that everyone should learn how to get really 'strong' and 'good' in order to learn how to be able to be a good advicer in the 'hereafter'.

If you didn't discover the truth about your own life, you would return to the pure elements of nature, without being aware of who you in fact were.  The meaning of life was, is and shall thus be of preparing yourself for afterlife, each in ones own way...whether that is

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cultivating tomatoes or writing, it can have the same result.  Life is not only transmitted through genes, but also by means of air and light and waves and the rest of nature's transport.

Life can be passed on, not only genetecally, but also by the elements in nature unther the form of energy...if it had gained the power to do so.  Important to know was that one always could be present in the dimmension you left...not only genetically...but also in the elements you fell apart in.

Even past, present and future were one and for some in a large extent for-feelable.

            From my new kind of feeling I could pas this to the writer that I cared for almost half of a century (even when I was alife).  He had read a few of my novelles.  I could help him finish his search...and I proved  him that only 'the good' , the source of everything could return.  Because I knew he still needed prove...so I helped him.  He knew that 'nothing' could not existed...because everything always tends to explode when it is equal or near ZERO...something without contence cannot exists, meaninglesnes cannot exist. The smalle something gets the more pressure is exposed on it.  This is the same for stars as for human relations.

He knew that the electrons were the undestroyable brics of everything.  He knew a lot about the elements  eand the game of electrons with their proton and neutron charged atomnucleons and their condition of indifferent equilibrism.  Whenever he was studying I helped him reach the symbolism behind al those laws.  He was enormously interested in the things of science.  He realisied he always met the right persons and read the right books to help him answering the links between life and dead.

He found out that with every end of something fysical, chemical,...)the consciousness of those elements  moved to the not yet vanished elements...because the wisdom of the original composition did not have to disapear.  Thus physics and chemics became biology, because the main law of life is that everything is an evolution to more and more consciousness.  The first cells die without beiing able to multiply themselves. 

The consciousness of those cells came as a kind of energy 'visiting' the folowing cells  that still had a classical living string with nature ...in those days when there were not yet organisms thar could move independendly.  The consciousness of the 'dead' but not 'dead' material (who was transformed in another kind of matter) came visiting  the new still living cells giving them 'advice'.  Those visits let to cells beiing able to DIVIDE themselves...which let to biological reproduction , the first independent organisms and a consciousness that became more the just the sum of the elements and combinations it was build of.  Nature was trying to teach us, that in order to survive you had to learn how to divide.  Then came the step from animal to men...from looking to things to thinking about things.  Men build relationships in their tribe, later their village, their town and so on.  On a graveyard in a village you can see the amount of combination life used to use to guide the game of attraction and repulsion, of equality...to always filter passed and present.

Poverty, wars and natural disasters have intervened in this 'wanting to be of beiing'...they must be prevented because they disrup things on a certain level.  We have to get aware of this.         

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